I’ve been on the verge a few times but nothing truly cleansing has occurred. I dunno I could just be acting like a total drama queen or a wimp but I feel like I really need to get some junk out of my heart.
I think I’ve been feeling a little lost for a while or something. Not really sure what to do with myself or my life or anything. The funny thing about that is my life is going pretty well. I am making progress with my GED studies, I just got a promotion at work, things with me and Danny have been fantastic, I am making new friends and broadening my social circles, things are even pretty good at home. But still it seems like I have a lot of baggage to shed so that I can truly and honestly move forward with my life and my evolution as a person and an adult. I just wish I knew what I need to do to clear out all the badness.
There’s a lot of anger that I think I need to get rid of as well. Little things seem to be able to set me off. Granted I do have Irish blood but I never used to be THIS angry. I mean I damn near took a woman’s head off today for something I should have just let go…but I didn’t. I yelled and said some horrid things then stormed off in a blaze of fury. That’s not me, I mean; sure, I get mad about stuff but never like this.
Something needs to change or be fixed or cleaned out if I am going to be able to function at least some what normally again. I hope I can figure out what or how I can fix this so I can at least enjoy all of the wonderful things going on in my life…we’ll see